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From Fr. Maurice Barthélemy-Bellière to Mother Marie de Gonzague (extracts) - July 17, 1897.

From Fr. Maurice Barthélemy-Bellière to Mother Marie de Gonzague (extracts) - July 17, 1897.

Langrune - Saturday

Dear Revered Mother,

I have just received your bleak letter and my sorrow must be equal to your own. Look, I’m weeping as one does when struck by a great misfortune. I didn’t believe there would be such a fatal and such an imminent outcome and I’m unprepared – so I’m complaining to Jesus of his rigour, which is no doubt selfish, but like you I’m brokenhearted. This treasure of the Carmel was also my treasure; I appreciated her as my most solid support and I leant all my weight upon her – I relied on her alone to progress towards God – and God himself is taking her from me and I’m falling back into deep misery. She forbids I lose heart – God forbids it also – and yet I feel quite crushed by this new blow. But there is perhaps still time – Jesus can heal her and surrender to our prayers, I want to hope. Let’s pray – I shall endeavour to defeat him through sacrifice – I’ll spare nothing in my power to take the jealous Master by storm. Yes, He is jealous and that is why he’s taking her from us – well he has the right to do so. Fiat! The fiat of agony – if it is possible, may this cup be taken from us.

More than ever, and more insistently than in yesterday’s letter – I ask you, Mother, to give me a picture of her and something made by her. I have no doubt that should you request this of her, she will grant you everything.

Allow me also to request a letter soon (…)

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