From Mme Martin to Mme Guérin CF 51 - February 12, 1870.

From Mme Martin to Mme Guérin

February 12, 1870

I’m sorry to hear that you’re sick. It’s quite tedious for you to have to stay in bed, but take heart; it’s only a few weeks to get through. You must be careful and not tire yourself because you’re not at all strong.

Neither am I. And I am not doing very well either. For the last six weeks I’ve often had a fever. However, it hasn’t stopped me. I do my work as usual. For over two weeks I even got up at five thirty every morning to go to the Church of Saint Léonard (another parish in Alençon ) to hear the Capuchins preach a mission. It ended today, but I don’t mind because it’s very cold.

I’m rejoicing, my dear sister, to think that next August we’ll each have a little boy, at least I hope so. But, girl or boy, we must accept with gratitude whatever God gives us because He knows what we need better than we do. What troubles me is to think of having to put my baby with a wet nurse again. It’s so difficult to find good people! I would also like to have the wet nurse live at our house, but that’s impossible; I already have enough people! In the end, I think God will help me. He knows well that it’s not laziness that keeps me from nursing my children because I’m not afraid of the effort.

I spoke about you yesterday with Madame Y. She finds you very happy and told me that she would like to be in your place. There are some people who advise her to go on a trip to Lourdes to obtain the grace of having children, but she declares that she doesn’t want to because she’d be afraid of having too many. As she loves her pleasure immensely, she prefers not to have any at all rather than be a slave. Her sister-in-law has been dangerously ill for several weeks, and they’re extremely worried about her.

So you see, my dear sister, everyone has troubles. The happiest are only those who are less unhappy. The wisest and simplest thing to do in all this is to resign oneself to the will of God and to prepare oneself to be ready to carry one’s cross as courageously as possible.

I’m going to write to the Visitation Monastery and ask my sister and my little girls to pray for you so that everything will turn out for the best. I’d like to be helpful to you and console you, but unfortunately I can’t do that. Well, I’ll pray for you that God will cure you and give you a child that will be your joy, like your little Jeanne.

I’ll be waiting for news from you towards the end of this week. Please, tell Isidore he must write to me and above all answer everything that I asked him in last week’s letter. He always forgets half of it….

My little Hélène is neither worse nor better.

 © Society of St. Paul / Alba House

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