From sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) to Mother Agnes of Jesus – October 7, 1924

From sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) to Mother Agnes of Jesus – October 7, 1924

7th October 1924

Beloved little Mother,

What a painful blow this is to our hearts, but we love the dear hand that strikes us above all things, because it belongs to our God, our Saviour who is preparing to crown our dearest eldest sister. Like you, I find that for a long time now she has been so otherworldly that I’m more afraid of this than her sickness. I, too, felt very melancholy on the 30th and I wept heavily that evening.

I feel very relieved that you are willing to continue updating me on the progress of the illness. We’re praying with all our strength that God removes this cup from us, but if He wants us to drink it to the dregs, then let His holy will be accomplished. I only ask that our darling sister comes to fetch me as quickly as she can if she goes before I do. But again, may God’s holy will be done. We must love His will above all things. At the foot of the cross where sweet Jesus was crucified, we weep and love together, because I’m under no illusion, our darling eldest sister is lost. She is ripe for heaven, and of course she is not leaving empty-handed. Do give her a hug from me. I love her so much! . . . . Yes, I am devastated, but I’m also very, very resigned.

I love you with all my heart! Nothing unites us more closely than our shared grief.

Your poor little daughter, Sr Françoise-Thérèse Martin

It’s likely I’ll go on retreat around the 20th of this month. I hope it’s the last . . . . Who knows, by then, the sacrifice might be complete . . . . “Fiat”!

How ugly the earth seems when seen from where our hearts already are in heaven!