From sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) to her three sisters in the Carmel - October 15, 1933

From Sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) to her three Carmelite sisters - October 15th 1933

V + J! From our monastery in Caen this 15th October 1933

Dear little sisters,

My retreat has ended. It is a relief when it’s over, as it is tiring and hard work, especially when, as in my case, it is spent feeling quite derelict. Yet if we desire and seek to do God’s will alone, we can’t be under any illusion, which is something I always fear. Our Mother is so kind and motherly! She’s a real Mamma! Here’s proof; one evening, after having taken a deep bow at the refectory door, I couldn’t stand up again. I was literally choking. Worried, our Mother sent me to bed. Imagine my surprise to see her come into the cell before Matins, lantern in hand, to see if I was feeling any better. I was deeply moved to see her take such trouble over a small complaint, particularly as she knew its cause. Even if I was ill, I don’t see what more she could have done.  

What are my petty sorrows compared to yours, darling little sisters? God is treating me like a cowardly chicken (I seem like one) and what’s more, I have a very cosy bed in comparison to your hard mattresses. And to think that, even crippled with pain as you are, you lie on them. They are crosses, not restful beds. It would be shameful of me to complain. Your courage helps me significantly. It’s true that I often go through long periods of sleeplessness, but I’m not normally in any pain, save the terrible itching.

See you soon, my increasingly beloved little sisters, for soon all four of us will be reunited forever in the heavens.

Sr Françoise-Thérèse Martin