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From sr Genevieve (Celine) to sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) - December 24, 1926

From sr Genevieve (Celine) to sr Francoise-Therese (Leonie) - December 24, 1926

+ Jesus                                                           Carmel of Lisieux

                                                                  24th December 1926

                                                                                                          

Darling little sister,

You know what I wish for you, my dearly beloved sister. I think about you so often, and look forward to seeing you one day in heaven to live with you always, all reunited in endless happiness!

1927 – It will have been 30 years since we lost Thérèse, and 30 years that we’ve been walking along together in exile. Do not fear, we have fewer years left to live and we are very close to the port.

This thought quickens my heart and constantly occupies my mind.

The other day, during thanksgiving, I was aspiring to die, as I often do, and I said to myself that dying will be my greatest and most meritorious achievement in life, one that I’ll only accomplish once. Then I felt an immense desire to fulfil it as perfectly as possible and I said to myself that I wouldn’t be satisfied with dying out of love, in an act of pure love. Instead I wanted it to be love that broke my bonds.

I then felt certain that my prayer would be answered. God couldn’t give us such desires if He didn’t wish to fulfil them.

If truth be told, I feel totally unworthy of such a grace, and my wretched life, which has been extremely outwardly oriented and consumed with earthly concerns, doesn’t seem to dispose me to it. Yet it’s precisely because of my unworthiness that the grace will be easier for me to obtain.

I will appear before God not with empty hands but with all my wrongdoings. I convene all my faults to my judgment. My good deeds are no longer of concern; I gave them to God after accomplishing them and He used them to save souls. You will say, “Yet in exchange, He will have reduced your bad deeds to nothing.” This is indeed what He would wish to do, but I don’t see it in that way, because then His much needed mercy wouldn’t satisfy me. He wouldn’t seem to need to forgive me, and I wouldn’t seem to need His pity, whereas I want to spend my heaven “in gratitude”.

When my time comes, I will therefore appear before God trailing all my sins behind me, as I said, and God will be so gentle with me that I won’t be able to overcome the sight of so much goodness, and the bond attaching me to earth will break under the strain.

You see, dear little sister, my desire is not impossible and almost appears natural, and it doesn’t need to be visible. I could show no sign of gratitude and things would nevertheless happen as I described. How can we doubt this when, with our own eyes, we saw love break Thérèse’s bonds following her act of supreme love?

God wanted us to see it so that we would believe it when it was no longer visible.

I will leave you, little Léonie, by sending you all my love. Your little sister

Sr Geneviève of the Holy Face and St Teresa u.c.n.   

Remember me to your dear Mothers. Give them my love and offer them my best New Year’s wishes.